I laughed
unusually but what came out were breaths of air. “Oh…that. Someone dropped
Raqibah and me off from school.” I replied silently, noting the expression on
mom’s face.
She scrunched up
her face in skepticism. “The red car that was parked outside a few minutes
ago?”
I felt a shudder
of nervousness. “Yes,…he’s a really nice man.”
Mom raked her
roughly-packed hair and clacked the spoon in the mug. “I never knew you were in
the car.”
“I was…and he’s
a nice person,” I sang sweetly, swinging my arms and reaching for her hair.
“Let me pack this neatly. Have you taken your bath? You’ve taken your
medication?”
Mom’s eyes
gleamed in happiness. She loved it when I take care of her like a child. “I
haven’t taken my bath…I’m too tired. I’ll take my drugs after eating lunch,”
she smiled slightly and I was glad that the topic of discussion had been
changed.
Mom was a thin
and frail-looking woman that was very fair in complexion, but her
yellow-coloured skin had begun to fade due to old age. She was average-height
with small squinty eyes and bold lips. Mom was a quiet woman; she hardly talked
except it was really necessary.
She also wore an
Ankara blouse and wrapper, or a long gown. She had a large collection of Ankara
outfits and she travelled often to Kano state, to buy new fabrics. Mom had once
wished to own a fabric store but it didn’t work out. She was so passionate about her business.
She owned a
stall where she sold bags of rice and beans. Mom had several employees that
worked for her. Her selfless dedication towards the success of her business had
made her home-sick. Mom had several responsibilities; to manage the house and
ensure that I get the best out of life.
“What will you
eat? Rice or amala?” I asked, walking towards the kitchen door. On the table
was ‘Enjoy Your Life’ book, opened at
its centre. Mom would read until her eyes turned red and swollen, and she would
never visit the eye clinic.
“Let us have
amala and okro soup. The dried fish stew should be very peppery oo. I don’t want to eat ‘pepeye’ food that will make me woozy.”
Mom laughed and I joined.
I was just about
to enter the kitchen when I turned to her. “Mom?”
She looked
absent-mindedly. “Yes, my daughter?”
“Do I look
beautiful? If you were a man, would you see me and like what you see?”
Mom stared at me
with arched brows. “What are you saying? What has gotten into you?”
“I’m sorry, let
me make this food on time,” I replied brusquely, dashing into the kitchen.
Mom had no
reason to feel awkward about what I said. I’ve always been the best of
daughters; avoiding illicit acts and obeying her at all times. At 23, I don’t
think that there should be a crime in liking someone.
I placed a pot
on fire; picturing the look on Najib’s face…his bright captivating his eyes,
the movement of his lips when he talked and the shiny-white teeth that were
always evident. I felt like the luckiest woman in the world to have such kind
of man drop her off at home and compliment her looks. Raqibah was with me and
Najib didn’t pay attention to her? What is so special about me?
“Fareedah, the
sauce is burning na. Have you added
the fish?” Mom called from the living room.
I drifted from
the Najib’s world to the house; in the
kitchen; with the strong smell of a burnt stew wafting the air. What is really wrong with me?
“I’m sorry mom.
I’ll add more water and boil the fish.” I scratched my head and held the hot
pot with my bare hands.
It hurt my palm
so much that I thrust it into the sink. Mom hurried to the kitchen to witness
what was ensuing. “Are you okay? You’ve been acting weird since you got back.”
She eyed me suspiciously.
“I’m fine…I
guess there’s just a lot on my head right now,” I stuttered, facing the sink
and dipping my scarred palm into a bowl of water.
“You just have
to take it easy, Fareedah. I know Medicine isn’t easy and you have a goal in
mind. You still have to make sure that you’re fine.” She held my hand.
“Thank you,
mom,” I replied, starting to feel guilty.
Mom had a
somewhat cracked-low-pitch voice that could calm the loudest of wind.
“It’s okay…I
understand. You still had to hurry from school to make lunch for me. You know
what? Let’s have rice and stew for lunch. We can have amala for dinner,” Mom
said, reaching to the shelf, where the food items were stocked.
I bit my lips
guiltily. “No mom, let’s have amala since it’s that’s what you want.”
“And I want rice
now.” She gave me the stern look that showed the finalisation of her decision.
I nodded and
washed two cups of rice in the sink.
“Have a cold
shower and change to a simpler clothing after you’ve placed the rice on fire.”
She said, leaving the kitchen.
I sighed deeply
and hastily place the rice on fire. I was eager to return to my room and check
my phone. I wanted to know if Najib had called…
Some minutes
later, I was in my room, pulling off my thick veil and feeling the rush of
breeze from the swiveling fan. I hastily opened my bag and reached for my
phone.
“20 MISSED
CALLS?!” I widened my eyes in shock.
Is he that desperate? It means that he is
really into me!
Unlocking my
phone and to my utter disappointment, I saw that Raqibah’s name filled
everywhere, with a picture that she had taken the last session.
Raqibah hardly
slept that semester; she added more weight (she
says that stress makes her add a lot of weight) and lumps of pimples filled
her face. Rumours had spread wide that she was pregnant but it was not long
that people discovered that she had starved herself of sleep- Raqibah was the
best student in the whole of Medical Sciences that year.
I laid on the
bed and stared at the phone, wishing that the contact name would change from
‘Raqibah’ to ‘Najib.’
I was just about
to dial her number when a call came in. it was Raqibah again. “Did you branch a
hotel with Najib that you’ll be ignoring my calls?’
Aha- there she
goes. Raqibah could be very saucy and this is one of those moments. “Are you
okay? Why will I accompany a total stranger to a hotel?”
“Well, you
could. Only if you could see how you were clearly flirting with him.” I could
picture Raqibah rolling her eyes and I scoffed in return.
“What do you
even think of your best friend? That she would easily fall for a man because he
is rich and handsome?”
“You never can
tell.” She replied.
“Now I know that
you’re truly not okay, Raqibah.”
“I’m sorry if I
sounded rude but you really need to be careful, Fareedah.”
I chewed my
lower lips and stared at the pink-flowery poster on my room wall. “Something
tells me that you’re jealous.”
“Jealous?”
Raqibah gave a silly laugh and I didn’t reply. She sighed loudly and said,
“Okay, I may be a bit jealous but you still need to be careful. Imagine, the
lyrics of that Bruno Mars’s song have been playing in my mind since I got down
from the car…instead of Professor Audu’s note.”
I giggled. “What
happened to the saying- “’Do not judge someone.’ Let’s watch and see if he is
truly what you think. And by the way, no one is perfect and anyone can change
at any point, before taking the final breath.”
“You’re right,
Fareedah.” She whispered.
“Yes- and this
guy hasn’t even proposed any relationship. We’ve barely met him for more than a
day and you’re saying all these. Let’s see if he wants something more than dropping
us off.” I remarked, hardly believing myself. I knew for sure that Najib wanted
more than that. Gosh! He would have said more if mom hadn’t called that minute.
“You never can…”
“Okay Raqibah,
I’ve got to go. Need to check the rice.” I hung up instantly and threw my
phone.
Why was my best
friend such a headache? She should mind her business and face her Professor’s
Audu’s note…
Speaking of
Professor Audu, I haven’t even revised his note? Well, I just got back and I started cooking. I’ll do so after having a
shower, and eating and praying. I thought.
I changed into a
towel and examined myself in the mirror… dark skin, small eyes, long nose, long
silky hair, a slender body…I wasn’t that bad.
***
“Mama Ola’s
daughter is getting married next month. She stopped by to drop the aso ebi we’ll
be wearing to the ceremony,” Mom said as she stirred the stew around the rice
closest to her on the plate.
We always ate
together. It was a way of deepening our love for each other.
I remembered
Ola, who I grew up with. We attended the same primary and secondary school, and
we were of the same age. Ola was admitted to Obafemi Awolowo University some
few months after graduation while I had to remain at home for a year, seeking admission
to the tertiary institution.
Mom didn’t want me
to leave the spheres of Kwara state and so my choices were limited to fewer
universities. Olamide studied Mass Communication, graduated four years later
and secured employment in Lagos state. Her life looked just perfect to me…now
more perfect with the news that she is getting married.
“Wow, that’s cool.
I wish her success in her married life,” I said, looking away as if I didn’t notice
Mom’s fixed gaze on me.
“You haven’t found
anyone?” Mom asked, putting a chunk of fish into her mouth.
I placed a huge
spoonful of rice into my mouth and ate slowly.
“Fareedah…I’m
just asking…not that…”
“Studies remain
the priority. Let’s not talk while eating Mom,” I said, suddenly remembering
the table manners.
Mom didn’t say
another word and we ate in silence.
Within minutes,
we completed our meal and I took the empty plate to the kitchen for washing. I gave
mom her drugs and returned to my room, eagerly expecting a call from Najib.
Entering my
room, the first thing I did was to grab my phone from the bed. There was still
no ‘missed call’ symbol. There was, however, an unread message.
I hurriedly
unlocked the phone and clicked on the message symbol.
Hi.
How are you Chocolate? This is Najib.
My hands froze…
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